We have a tendency to desire a single state of mind, usually equanimity, unperturbed by circumstance. What is it we want practice to do for us? I think we all have a fantasy of maintaining a certain state of imperturbability regardless of circumstances. Really is that something we would even want? Rather than help us numb ourselves, practice should help us let go of control into whatever is happening. So that we can be simply human when the time comes.