Twenty-four hundred years ago, Socrates walked the streets
of Athens making a pest of himself. He told his fellow citizens
that their unexamined lives weren't worth living, and challenged
them to investigate with him, the question, "What was
the Good Life?" Curiously, Socrates never answered his
own question, he said he didn't know. But he found when he
asked others, they didn't really know either. Instead they
walked around with various unexamined assumptions about life
which when examined logically, often turned out to be confused
or contradictory. These unexamined background assumptions
about life are what Joko has called our core beliefs, and
what psychoanalysts sometimes refer to as invariant organizing
principles. And like Socrates, our practice is to make these
unexamined assumptions explicit, to look at where we got our
ideas about the nature of a good life and the nature of the
self. And in meditation we might be said to go yet another
step further, to challenge our unspoken identification of
our self with our thoughts. As we observe and label our thoughts,
settle into our bodies, settle into the silence behind our
thoughts, who we are takes on a new meaning.
When
I said that Socrates went around making a pest of himself,
I was actually using his own metaphor for what he did. When
he was on trial for his life, he told the Athenian assembly
that their city was like a thoroughbred horse that had gotten
fat and lazy, so the gods sent him to act like a horsefly,
to bite and goad the city out of its torpor and into self-awareness.
That's certainly one function of a teacher. But life sends
us all sorts of horseflies all the time, and we need to recognize
and make use of them. That's why a zendo needs to function
smoothly, but perhaps not so smoothly that we can take it
for granted. As each of us rotates through different service
positions, as we try to plan our sesshins and so forth, we
have to deal with one another's opinions, mistakes and expectations.
All of these can nip us back into self-awareness, can be reminders
to practice with every aspect of life as it is. How do we
imagine things ought to go, how should that other person be
handling themselves, how should we be reacting? Learning from
all the buzzing nuisances of everyday life is how practice
comes off the cushion and truly transforms our life.